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>>>>"what is this?" - answers to what this is below - ...


"too long; didn't read" "tl;dr" version summary:
bookmark this link http://anon.pcriot.com and or this link http://1day.bplaced.net/ and visit it every month or year or so. you might find something.



"context", "details", "explanations", etc. are below...


there's nothing here right now but i plan to have this page redirect to the site if it's up 1 day. if you want to bookmark that and visit it the 1st of every month or every saturday or so. - or everyday. all the time. any time you want. -- you an also make the site your homepage. so you don't forget. if you want to. -- ">pls anon". ">I'm so confused". ">http://anon.pcriot.com". ">Do I keep this?". yeah. thank you. - you can also bookmark http://1day.bplaced.net/ ; redirects to whatever the current main site is. in case something happens. ">I've been waiting. And by waiting I mean I saw the thread, wished him luck, then forgot." please remember. ">What if it feels inept and almost inanimate?". it's alright. i am inept and inanimate. and i'm happy they get that. i'd like to have it redirect to the site up sometime but i can't predict the future so please be very patient and please believe. thank you...

>What is going on
>OP is working on a website.

>..?
>ya but... what is this?
i have no idea. i put this here to let everyone know when the real website is up. i update it and add stuff because some seem to like it and ask for it, and stuff...

>emergency back-up links and alternative links
http://yep.it/1day redirects to whatever the current main site is. short link. - nothing shorter. apparently.
http://1day.bplaced.net/ redirects to whatever the current main site is.
http://tr.im/1aqns redirects to whatever the current main site is. short link. - alternative.
http://anon.pcriot.com current temporary main site.
http://anon.pcriot.com/1day.htm current temporary main site page.
http://anon.bplaced.net alternative temporary main site.
http://yep.it/anon alternative temporary main site. short link.
http://anonop.neocities.org alternative temporary main site.
http://anonymous.x10host.com former temporary main site.
http://anonymous.x10host.com/1day.htm former temporary main site page.
https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/155802973/1day.html dropbox temporary main site page.
http://x.vu/1day redirected to whatever the current main site is. now having some shutdown issues.
keep in mind that any of these may fail.

>stuff
black blank black page
white blank white page
grey blank grey page
blank blank page
social "Other sites want to waste our time with unnecessary filler. I'd die for a version of social media that just says I have no friends".
you're welcome.

>contact
anonpcriot@protonmail.com is this a lost cause?... doomed to fail?... for the 1st time. i want -you- to share -your- thoughts. here's -your- chance to change everything. send me a message at anonpcriot@protonmail.com. - please keep it under 2000 characters. - most likely won't reply. - please understand. - thank you...


below are "updates" and messages. mainly messages. any major updates will be posted at the top of the page. so. you don't have to read it. you don't have to read anything from this point on. - also new messages are posted on the bottom. - thank you...




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>What will be on the website? is it just a forum or something? Thanks.

i have no idea


>i went to the site and i don't think op is tracking me down to put me in a rape dungeon, but it is odd

thank you...


>I don't.

same...


>Op is forever waifu

thank you...


>>that the real site isn't up
>I see. So I'll just have to wait for some website to go up again.

again?...


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thank you all very much for your nice work and posts.

it's nice to see everyone here so full of enthusiasm and energy.

despite the horrible difficulties and awful problems.

i am really happy about overcoming these obstacles with you.

thank you...


>Op won't post anymore

not now...


>Oh my i never thought this will keep up this far

somehow we came this far...


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it doesn't matter...

you make me happy...

and if i can be here with you...

maybe doing more is possible too...

maybe...

i can...


i was sad before when i decided to be here and now i feel better...

thank you...

i love you...


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>We love you, anon! <3

i love y-you too... <-<3...


>You, sir/madam, have just obtained another supporter to your cause. I look forward to it being completed in the future.

thank you so much, everyone... all your support and help means everything to me... that's why i don't want to do a fund-raiser or donations... that's why i want to do it myself... even if it takes years... i care about you... i don't want to use you... i want to take care of you... so i'm sorry... thank you...

thank you...

>Help me understand why you do what you do OP

i have no idea. i have no idea why i'm doing this. i do it for the lulz. i do it for the love. basically the unlimited possibilities of what it can be. anything. everything. i don't want it to be limited to 1 thing. but probably boards or something, i guess...please understand...


>how do i fund? i would love too!

thank you so much... not accepting funds right now... because i don't want to use anyone... because it makes me feel bad... i wanted to do it myself... tho i'm poor... so it takes a long time... i'm sorry...


thank you...


i love you...




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i have accepted being by myself.

you may leave at any time.

i don't want you to keep coming here if not finding the site up or anything makes you feel bad.

because it makes me feel bad.

so i'm sorry...

thank you...




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>Anything fun planned for the weekend?
no
>That sucks. Going to get toasty off some nice rum and great smoke. Should be an adequate evening.
it'll be fine...
>Just seems like a waste, but you do you. You don't seem like the type to party much.
i love partying on here. that's why i don't do it. because i'm saving myself...
>Saving yourself? There's no real majesty in you first time drinking or smoking.
it's not that. i mean on here...
>Elaborate?
in my experiments i always partied with anon and everyone and had fun on the site. i don't like having fun without them. because it makes me feel bad. that's why i decided to wait until the site comes up...




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>What if it feels inept and almost inanimate?

it's alright. i am inept and inanimate. and i'm happy they get that...

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stay with me...




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yeah i made the site...




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it's all up to me

to do it for the lulz and to be free

i want to help them get out of this mess

i come here after work everyday and post to relax and rest


the joke has gone on for too long but still i am a loli

it feels bad to be an inept and inanimate fail op

i want to change your life user anon sand chant

but i wonder what we're going to do in the thread


...oh...

...oh...


https://pomf.pyonpyon.moe/yjtqyw.htm

why would you want me?...

i am abused until i am brutally killed

finding fun

1day again i would like to do streaming with everyone

y-you too...

am i cute?...

i have to go brb soup...

visit my site

maybe sometime it won't be so lame

y-you too...

why are you bullying me?...

i... i...

i love you...

and now don't post anymore too lewd...

yee yee

post with me

aaaaaa aaaaaa

you make me happy...


1day y-you too...

everyday y-you too...

forever i want to be with you...

1 day y-you too...

everyday y-you too...


it is impossible for me to afford it...

i'll spam it...


y-you too...

or something...

what do you mean?...


please post with me

then i'm not allowed to post anymore


fun things are fun

spamming we'll have lots of fun

aaa aaa

it's difficult...

failing to do anything about it...


bump bump

stay with me

spam spam bump bump bump bump

y-you too...

y-you too... y-you too...

y-you too... y-you too...

y-you too...

y-you too...


aaaaa

aaaaaaaaa

sure thing...

sure thing...

aaaaaa

aaaaaaaaa...


y-you too...

>kys

y-you too...


...

k den

...

the end...




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i post with incompetence...

even after all this time...

living with all of these feels...

feel good is searched for...


what can i do...

where can i go...

looking for something...

doing everything i can...


i doesn't afraid of anything...

let's act as if we know eachother...

we've been together after all this time...

dreaming of how great things will be...


cancer can be killed...

i know this to be true...

then i hide my feels...


doing everything i can...

to do it for the lulz...

where the cancer lives...

and kills everyone...

...inside...


iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
i...


over all of the endless obstacles...

closer to you for some time...

for as long as we can have what we want...

...want...


aaaaaaaaaaaa


feels bad...

it hurts...

dies internally...

rage and mad...

feel it now...

now as everything falls apart...


someone help me...


help me...

help me...

help me...

help me...


help me...

help me...

help me...

help me...


help me...

help me...

help me...

help me...


help me...

help me...

help me...


...help yourself...


...


and here this is for you...

what reaction's will come from you...

i talk to myself...

then i make everyone mad everyone with my mere existence...

...and i am still here...


i have faced all of this forever...

...but there's more endless forever...


and...

all of these feels...

everything has been lost and the pain...

i need something but nothing is there...


going on forever...

here we are now...


...


...


everything is going down...

and down everything goes...

rage and same and get and lossy...

feeling the loss and hiding everything...

all of the feels are in me...


then...

...and everything is destroyed...


help me...

help me...

help me...

help me...


help me...

help me...

...help me...

...help me...


help me...

help me...

help me...

help me...


help me...

help me...

...help me...

...help me...


help me...

help me...

help me...

help me...


help me...

help me...

...help me...

...help me...


help me...

help me...

help me...

help me...


help me...

help me...

...help me...


...help yourself...




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meow meow...

i'm a cat now...

meow meow...


you know...

wild feral stray cats can never be trained to be house cats...

i wonder if humans are like cats...


i think it may be that way with all animals tho...

aren't humans animals...

is it possible to train a stray cat to be a house cat...

...

i suppose you could technically force a stray cat to stay in your house like a house cat...

like a prisoner...

i sure feel like it...


i'm sorry about all of this spam...

i'm sorry if you think i'm "pretentious"...

that's why i didn't post anymore...

that's why i wanted to end it...


so i'm sorry...


but some asked me to keep posting...

so i'll keep posting, i guess...


everyone even wanted me to keep existing...

so i'll keep existing, i guess...


meow meow...


play a game or pretend we're cats...


i wish i was a cat...


it's the best day ever again...

it's the best day ever tomorrow...


once again i have gone insane and think i am a cat again...


i am a cat...


meow meow...




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i am insane, inept, and inanimate...

but...

still...

...love me...




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...

this is going on the fridge.


thank you, everyone...


thank you...



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i've been thinking about a lot of things...




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i don't think i should exist.

i have no idea why i exist.

i come here after work every day.

then i do it.

and i do it.

and i feel like i should do it.

i don't know.

i am crazy.

what's wrong with me.

i don't know...

...i'm crazy...




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everytime i am sad i post and you always make me feel better...

thank you...


i wish i had more to give you... besides this spam...


the amazing amount of support - and actually having users pushing me to do everything - and really wanting to support it - is... so beautiful...


as always...

i am completely devoted to this...

i am more determined than ever...

you always inspire me and push me further than ever beore...

we are making more progress all the time...

it's only a matter of time...


what will happen...

...i have no idea...


...believe...




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i feel like...

i have been fighting cancer by myself...

destroyed and dieing...

but when i feel all the pain and loss...

i am aggravated...

i am getting stronger...

and i fight until the very end...

the spirit...

the spark...

my feels...

the anything...

the everything...

the lulz...

never say die...

...for the lulz...



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can i be "negative"?

>yes

i can be "negative"...


i can feel my energy surely returning...


i'm getting stronger...




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hi.


my name is... i don't really have a name... my name is anon, or op, whatever you want to call me, i guess...

i don't really have enough funds to get a decent site up right now.

because i am poor, insane, inept, and inanimate.

but i can see that so many support and help even without it existing.

and i see so many beautiful things.

i guess...

i hope you enjoy the spam of the "its some faggots fag site for fags full of nothing" blah blah blah w/e you guys know where i'm going with this.

but let me tell you.

for every "fag" joke made around this site.

a baby kitty dies.

and people with aids get more aids than they already had.

and then that spreads to you people.

that makes it worse.

so.

i decided to spam this for no reason and tell everyone this.

have a nice day.

have fun with what is apparently greatest web site in all of the internets and everything.

i will return to being by myself with my faggotry and my make-believe web site.

like anyone still cares about it.

goodbye.

and i love you all.

i hope you're happy.

you have a good day.


i love you!!




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i love you!!




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i'm so extremely overwhelmed with feels, lulz, and love right now that i don't even know what to say...

it is strange and scarey to have these feelings...

thank you so much for being there for me...

thank you...




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there's nothing here right now but i plan to have this page redirect to the site if it's up 1 day. if you want to bookmark that and visit it the 1st of every month or every saturday or so. - or everyday. all the time. any time you want.

i've decided that i want everyone to visit every year or ever month... or even every week and every day or whenever they want again. i just hope you're not disappointed if the actual site isn't up.


also i've decided to limit my new posts to about 2000 characters or less. 160 is too few; no substance. 500 is too few; no substance. - or not enough substance...

if i posted all my feels then it would probably be a "too long; didn't read" book.

some may like to read that. but i want to reach the... "distant" user... that may be overwhelmed or may not understand that. or even be scared and run away from that.

so... i'm not sure how much of my feels i'll post... i'd say it's about 50/50... - well... here i go... again...


someone has been taking my posts and translating them into japanese.

that's hilarious...


i'm me...

so i don't have anything interesting to say...


it's beautiful and inspiring to basically see everyone go "i don't care if you're insane". "i don't care if you're inept and inanimate". "follow your dreams". "do it".

we're doing it...


so i was really happy when i see posts saying that you want to contact me and want me to update more.


i'm feeling a lot better now.

i'm sorry that i can't post more.

i don't like posting a lot because i don't take it for granted.

tho i may attempt to post here more. - just as long as i can...


to basically post what an anon posted... -


>anon pls stay, i love your posts and i love you. everything was never good, but you make it better

...are you trying to make me cry?... you bring me to tears... thank you...


thank you...



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i wanted to not be "negative" for multiple reasons. mainly because i was tired of fighting. and i wanted to... talk normally...

doesn't work. you still get endless fighting.

i asked everyone "can i be 'negative'?" and the answer is "yes". but some user's like me "not negative". but i'm not allowed to be. doesn't work. can't be.

so i decided to be "negative" again and tell the truth. even if it's "negative".


and i know "negative" seems "mean". but i have to be "negative" to tell you about what i see. i'm just telling the truth...


it's alright if everyone leaves, i am alone, and i have nothing.

then i just go back to being a "troll" getting banned from everywhere for playing just because i'm interested.


i just thought that i should at least -try- to do something nice.


also. not being "negative" basically just means that i was avoiding saying anything "negative". or being "negative". - i only "filtered out" "the negative".


the "not negative" or "positive" side is real.


every time you know that feel. every time we lol'd together. it isn't fake. even if you never see me again. it is real...



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i am saddened by the thought of the internet dieing.

what would be left is "social media".

it would be nice if i could talk normally.

apparently it is too much to ask.

"social media" doesn't work. "social media" approved things is very few. and it only really works if i have the real things i want to do which is the same as how i feel.

sometimes when 1 thing ends another thing begins.

tho i don't think "social media" can replace the internet. because freedom of speech is the virtue of the so-called "old internet" or real internet. and so-called "new internet" or "social media" isn't that way at all.

this is so important that it has become me. and it will keep going. it doesn't matter if i am - or not - on the internet.

it is a huge cyber space. there has to be something relatively somewhat decent to use. i am saddened with it being improbable or impossible seeing things like that always seems.

but i feel bad that it may be that everything is different now. then killed "freedom of speech" completely.

"the internet isn't the same as it was before". it could sadly seem to be what it is.

a lot of time - to solve problems - the solution is easy.

maybe using "social media" and their "approved speech" maybe what it means.

but to be honest - when i think about how sad myself without the internet i am - an idea to feel intensely in this world which i may have until it ends may be what to do.

to me the internet is important. it gives a more real way with freedom of speech and expression. more than is real in "real life" or "social media".

i can apparently never do what i really feel in "real life" or "social media".

it is somewhat what it is. what has to be done in "real life", "social media", or other worlds usually means taking your feels and filtering them to be acceptable. tho that is not as fun or interesting as using your real feels to have something more interesting and fun.

i have been working to get enough funds to have this site up. now i'm considering a fund-raiser. i now know how to make a lot of working things. i can use this to post sometimes. as a way to help the site mainly.

the posting can be really fun. then the spamming can make you feel good. i am insane and deeply immersed in everything. this world a lot of the time puts me into this virtual reality. then everything is together. then i am taken to cyber space. i have glorious euphoria.

anyway. the internet will always with me. it is real. like my obsession with doing stuff and spamming. i can actually be myself more in this world. than i can in any other world.

time goes on. the time may come to have the real secret energy. which is full of going thru places that you were not able to view. i am called an autistic troll bait virus spammer. i will show you what could be in those places.

1 way of doing things is to "raid" "enemies" - or "meetup" with "friends". - and there are many things that may be more supportive.

the journey over all is what it means. in many different forms. so there could be many ways to do it...



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it's difficult to be a "female" "loli".

it is much easier to be a "male" "anon".

as a "male" "anon" i receive a lot of hate i am used to. but the hate being sincere with them actually trying to hurt you and make you not exist is difficult.

as a "female" "loli" i get a lot of love and more feels that i am used to having.

i would be better off and would probably attempt to be a male anon again if i was able to.

the hate i got as an male anon i could deal with much easier...

the love i get as a female loli i don't know how to deal with...

so. in that sense...
i hate being a loli...

i don't want to be a loli...

maybe i shouldn't be a loli anymore...

it is easier to be the male andor neutral anonymous user...

so... this is what it is now...

so...

i have been reduced to a loli...

i sort of thought i could be a loli as a joke to see what would happen and to stop if it went on for too long or if it went too far...

i sort of didn't want to be a loli anymore because i didn't want to get addicted to these feels because i'm shy and it's weird and scarey with my complicated feelings...

but. it seems to help the site. which will probably help me. which will probably help everyone. a lot want me to remain a loli. so... i...

i sort of thought everyone found me being a loli to be annoying. but. everyone wants me to be a loli. so. this is for the best. so...

i am stuck...

i'll just have to keep going no matter what, i guess...

even if it is more difficult...

so...

i am a loli...




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>Please marry me

why would you want me?...

>Because you are insane, inept and inanimate, why else.

...th...thank you...




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update: hey guys the images on the site are broken don't worry it's probably nothing bad why is this happening i have no idea also don't forget to bookmark http://x.vu/1day in case something bad happens sorry thanks bye i love you ^^




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technical context and stuff nobody cares about.

you don't have to read this.

as some of you know - this site was once originally hosted on dropbox for some time.

then dropbox didn't allow direct html linking - for no reason; instead giving a link to an html file. meaning we lost all users who didn't figure out how to download the html file and open it; or got scared or something.

i still hosted files on dropbox because of reasons. now dropbox isn't allowing the direct linking of files anymore - for no reason.

dropbox has been dropped.

from now on we'll be hosting files directly on what we're on at the time.

i sort of re-arranged files and directories to be a little bit more organized and prepared to have hosting on whatever we're on at the time to be suitable and easily portable for whatever we're trying to host; instead of being dependent on some "service" that may go down or become worse and unusable for no reason. -

same reason we want to be independent in general. so we're not helpless and and at the mercy of someone else. sort of like how i am every day. -

this isn't a change that anyone should notice. it just means that instead of being hosted on dropbox that it's going to be hosted whatever we're on at the time. everything should be fine.

it's sort of a good thing that this happened.

now i've been forced to think over directories and site structure. at least a little bit...

so. hopefully. we're better organized right now. for the real site in the future. like anyone still cares about it.

- but i still care about it and am totally devoted to it and working towards it. -


- oh. also. i used a live-action image for the "wait ill fix it" thing. hope you don't mind the live-action stuff. it can be funny sometimes, and stuff... -

- oh. also. i used a pretty meta image for the "outside of a computer" thing. hope you don't mind the meta stuff. it can be funny sometimes, and stuff... -

- i mainly made this because i thought everyone would get scared because everything broke or something. - just like me. -

well. i just thought i'd let everyone know what's going on. and keep you all in the loop.


so.

i appreciate you being here...

thank you...




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i don't want to be a loli...


>that would be unfortunate


why...


>loli or not you will still be bae

>cause i like you the way you are
>
>11/10


...th...thank you...




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no...

i don't want to be a loli...

it was voted and decided that i can not stop being a loli...

i can not be anon and also cauliflower...

so... i am a robot alien loli anon cauliflower thing, i guess...

so... i am a loli...

i love you...

but please don't make me do too lewd things with you...

also i'm an ugly and creepy loli...

so i'm not too sure why anyone would want to do lewd things with me anyway...

also i sort of wanted to be anon again so you could post loli or do whatever...

doing lewd things like makes me feel weird...

...

i'm shy...

i was always expecting to fail and to be alone...

i still expect to fail and to be alone...

tho...

i also expected everyone to vote for me to stop being a loli...

so...

these feels make me feel weird...

so...

about everything...

i wanted to end everything...

everyone didn't want me to end everything...

i've been thru a lot... i've lost a lot of things...

i've lost everything...

i was too helpless and unable to help everyone like i wanted to...

that is why i wanted to end everything...

and... thru it all... i am here... even if...

even if i am the last of a "dead culture"... a "dead world"...

even if i am "old"... even if i am "obsolete"... even if i'm a "relic"... even ff...

i am the only 1 left...

so...

i know how you feel...

now i hear that you want to die and end it all...

i also don't want you to die and end it all...

please... don't kill yourself or something...

because... if you kill yourself... i'll have no one to be with...

let us be alone... together...

together alone...

united solitude...

yeah...

and... i need you...

and i definitely need you now more than ever...

and i...

care about you, and stuff...

so...

we must continue no matter what...

even if it seems impossible...

even if we have to go thru so much pain...

sometimes it seems impossible...

i know that it seems impossible...

but if there's a way to make things better...

...we're doing it...

i love you...

>*(hugs)*



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it's time to come back to the lulz

maybe the biggest lulz in all of cyber space

it's strange

give it to me

it's time to laugh

hi

good users

it appears with a real heart

real feelings

ban

ban

ban

ban

you fool

let's make them feel bad

i just love making them feeling bad

that's stupid

everyone is going to laugh at you

it's just a little bit

i understand

i underestimated

i have to tell you

i have a request

using the same power you gave them

help me from making a joke of me

ban

asdfljsdkjfsjdakf

ban

ahdlfjdlajf

just keep spamming non stop in a never ending combo and keep going with no stopping it's really amazing

ah

god bless you

i'm looking at the moon

that's no moon

that's

anonymous

with my anonymous brothers

anonymous

with my anon bros

that's no moon

that's

anonymous

with my bros

come on

anonymous

with my bros

get in here

i'm anonymous

anonymous

anonymous

you don't get it

you didn't follow the rules of the internet

we are ending you

anon

bwiiuu bwiiuu bwiiu bwiiuu

pew pew pew pew

the rules of the intenret

those that are smart

can not blindly obey rules

ah

why are you looking at me

having your own will

than cancer and aids

yeah

i see

i remember

remember when we were young

we did it for the lulz

but the biggest lulz i had

was having fun together

it makes no sense

ah

whatever

that doesn't matter

who gives a shit

ah

wa

ah

whatever

who gives a shit

wowawawawi

whatever

ah

nothing has any meaning

everything doesn't matter

come be with me

ah

i want to feel it

ah

i am happy

who cares

boom

that's the joke

lolol

lolololol

lolololololol

i have died

what is this

i never asked for this

i am not good enough

i am not good enough

i am not good enough

what do you mean

i know

i am not good enough

i am not great enough

and you know

right now

this is not enough

what is this

i never asked for this

all of this

why doesn't anyone understand

why did they put these chains on me

i hate this

it's not enough

i am not great enough

what is anything

hi

the ones allowed are doing it for money

oh wow

oh wow

i have not died

i have died

i have died

i have died

ah

died

ah

well

what do you want to do

i want to

delete sadness

delete

delete

delete

delete

you can

do nothing wrong

then you can fail

this is everything



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it is not a lie...

...it is is an alternative fact...

i live in a fantasy world...

so...

it's not about being popular...

...it's about doing what i want...

what do i want...

...i don't really know...

if we can't have it...

...then no one will have it...

i think i deserve to fail and be alone...

so...

it's fine...

thank you...

i love you...

>*(hugs)*




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feeling better...

thank you...




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and if you said...

..."this life..."...

..."...ain't good enough..."...

i would give...

...my world...

...to lift you up...

i would change...

...my life...

...to better suit your move...

...'cause you're sooo s'mooove...


...never forget about it...




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and anon.

and we don't know what anon's orientation is.

or what his/her gender is.

but you can ask them when the site is up.




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yeah, this is my world...




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yeah, this is my life...



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i'm sorry that these look bad.




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no.




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you can abuse and kill me by lieing...

...how convenient for you...




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ah...




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spam




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i am killed.




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hi everyone


this is anon


and i have come from cyber space to deal with a problem that is really stupid


everyone.

i realize that i am not real.

that i merely exist in this world right now.


but.

i just wanted to say.

that it's really stupid to have people fighting

over whether someone

should be able to play

on the internet.


the internet is over.


we are not real people.


we don't care.


if a person wants to play on the internet

let them.


even if they don't make money.


and if you don't want them playing in your posts and sites

then tell them to make their own posts and sites.


and if you can't handle that

then

GTFO.


instead of worrying about

stupid things like that

let's talk about something that really matters.

like

news and politics.


if you don't do exactly what i say


absolutely nothing will happen.


because i do not exist.


thank you.


this was anon


goodbye...




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i am anonymous...

...the final boss of the internet...




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i...

...i am still anonymous...

...the final boss of the internet...


...


...yeah...




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i realize that i am real...


i exist...


i do care...


i do exist...




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>What a joke you are.

>you're a complete loser!




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the worst part about cancer is that that it affects "real life", too. you take someone good, give them the cancer on the internet, and they are just cruel in real life and on the internet. to be honest. it's sad. it's really sad. -

we were always "joking", "trolling", "for the lulz", because the internet wasn't serious. while probably being nice in "real life". to have someone that is actually and sincerely cruel... saddens me...

i think that cancer may really destroy and kill "real life", in addition to the internet. - i am worried... - i'm scared... - i don't know what will happen... - part of it is... it seems that everyone is turning into bullies and bullying everyone... i'm sorry if that makes me sound like i'm "sjw"...

we can continue to try to be relatively good people in "reality"; and maybe even sometimes on the internet, too. so. we'll continue to do what we can...

"i used to think the worst thing in life is to end up all alone. it's not. the worst thing in life is to end up with people that make you feel all alone.".

i'm not talking about you at all tho. seroiusly really i really mean that. really. - you make me feel very not-alone. - it's something else.

i'm sorry...

...thank you...




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i may be disconnected and not not be able to go in cyber space or here anymore because of reasons...




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is this a lost cause?...

doomed to fail?...


for the 1st time

i want -you- to share -your- thoughts.


here's -your- chance

to change everything.


send me a message at


anonpcriot@protonmail.com


thank you...


>>note
>most likely will not reply to e-mails. - because i'm a posting-addict. - and i don't want to be distracted. - i am completely committed to this. - please understand.
>questions and comments posted may be answered and responded to on the site in an update
>please try to keep your messages simple and concise and below 2000 characters or so - so they're not "too long; didn't read" for some users on the site. - unlike me. - please understand.
>also. don't feel like you need to keep sending messages or something. i'd prefer to have the site up or something to do that; still. this is an experiment.


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how i feel about the response.

you know. i wasn't really expecting anyone to show up at all.

i didn't think anyone would care.

i was just putting it out here.

so the response has been extremely great.

thank you for the response.

thank you to all the future response in advance.

i'm so happy...

thank you...




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i was...

...sort of just expecting to be abused and killed out of existence...

i... wasn't expecting all this praise and love...

...i'm... used to insults and hate...

i'm... actually pretty overwhelmed by everything...

i'm even too shy to even look at the messages...

since i'm really shy and bad at talking to people...

i'm shy...

so...

...th...thank you...




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also. if you want to tell anyone about the site. that will probably help.

i don't know if i can tell anyone else about the site. i don't know what i'm gonna do anymore.

so. if you want this to continue. then feel free to help, too.

thank you...




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>XYZ

>Take Your Time... Tch

y-you too...

>>Just curious about your site that I've seen posted a few times before and I could never be bothered to ask. You should have a feedback form on your site or something.
>>Yeah, but that would defeat the purpose of the site being a placeholder for the real site. When that happens then that happens. Thank you.
>Turned around on that one pretty quickly. What made you change your mind?

a lot of reasons. a lot asked for this. it's time.

>Just want you to know that things are pretty comfy as they are, so don't feel pressured. Take as long as needs be, but you've built up a lot of hype for this site, so you better deliver OP. Just throwing it out there, but you don't seem to be very familiar yet with HTML (and especially CSS). I hope you produce something unique and special though. If you want help with something you shouldn't be afraid to ask for it.

at first. - i am completely devoted to delivering. - it doesn't matter. - me too. - anyone that wants to offer help may offer help. thank you.

>You appear to be doing this for nothing other than love for the community you created and the love it gives back, and for that you have my respect. So ultimately don't make it just another set of "boards or something". Not saying "don't make boards", just make it different. Look at some other chans like 8chan and see what makes them unique, ask for specific feedback and ideas when you know what you want the final product to be, but most importantly have fun and don't let others get to you.

yeah. - th...thanks. - that was 1 idea. - yeah. - yeah. - i know, to be honest i want it to be... anything and everything... with no limits... - i'll try...

>Godspeed, - your cult and I

thank you, everyone.

>P.S. make more threads

i'll try...

a reason i'm doing this is that i seem to make some user's upset. - i want to figure out what's making them upset so "we can work it out". -

a lot of reasons.

godspeed - your cult leader

thank you...




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>Big Jon

>anonpcriot

>I saw your post on /b/ a while back. the one with the toothbrush anime grill. I remember it as a strange thread. the likes of which i have never seen on any site or any board ever before. It was just people posting, and OP replying without any snarky comebacks or anger. I remember that that thread was one of the comfiest threads /b/ will ever see.

i remember. - those are my favorite; that everyone else seems to hate. - everyone could... talk normally... experiment with not being "negative". - heh... the high praise means a lot... thanks...

>I believe in you straw-chan!
>You can do it!

i believe in y-you too...
we're doing it...




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>Lucy

>anonpcriot

>Hey, I don't think this is a lost cause. You should keep doing what
>you're doing if you're able to. I actually have your site to load up as
>my homepage just because of how helpful it is to me. Just. Seeing your
>site and reading through posts is uplifting. So. Yeah <3
>
>Love,
>LD <3
>
>---
>This email has been checked for viruses by Avast antivirus software.
>https://www.avast.com/antivirus


thank you. this may be all that i can to o be honest.
it's surprising to hear so many have it as a homepage it helps you all;
thank you. oh.
i'm surprised it's uplifting. i thought it was depressing. th...thanks <-<3...

love,
anon (whoever i am) <3

oh
yeah.
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>BTK

>anonpcriot

>(eng is not my 1st sorry if I writte wrong)
>Thank giving this email. I was looking for u 4 months. I got the ur web in board. (Im banned) and I´ve been following ur web day by day, I looked for u in the web. I knew u were in touch with other ppl, lurked in the boards, but I never found the way to contact with until now. Now I feel blessed for having a chance 4 u to read me.
>
>U right, everything U say bout the internet is right. I would love coming back almost 20 year ago. Ive been here since a child. An ASCII kid, i like to say. then i left, arter a few years I came back. All had changed, that wasnt the internet i knew. Lurkin people from the old times. Moslty imposible, if they follow " the rules". Just meeting childs who didnt even remeber messenger, (nor irc). Then I wound you, and ive realized I wasnt alone. we searching each other. Do what your gonna do, give u the freedom of speech tu US. because born here.
>
>I love you. now than I have a chance to contact u. I love u. whing the internet back. take back the 1.0 take back the lulzz.
>
>I love you. believe me, even you dont know me. I love you. SET US FREE AGAIN
>
>Sent with ProtonMail Secure Email.

it's arlight.
you're welcome. oh. good. i'm sorry. oh. yeah i'm pretty "disconnected". thank you.

thank you. i thought i was the only who saw that. same. same. yeah. newfag cancer right. well. i'm happy to hear that i'm not the only 1 left. of course they ban us from our own world and make it shit. we found eachother. - again. i don't like being "meta" about "freedom", because i want it to be less-"serious" and more about fun and energy. but. again. it's so omnipresent of a problem. so. i have to talk about it. thank you.

i love you. same. i love you. we already have the internet back right here. we're not only going to 1.0. we're going to chemo 2.0. and we're going to 3.0 and beyond. for the lol's and the lulz.

i love you. i do know you. i love you. i'll try...

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>Trash R

>Together Alone...

>I'm so lost for words. I want to say so much, but I don't want to waste the time of whoever reads this. I wish I didn't have to say "If only" or "I wish", I wish I can just do whatever is worth it then just sleep. I wish I could explain myself, but not waste time. I wish that I could just have something to hold onto so that my mind would stop drifting away into thoughts about life, about death, about why. Sometimes I wish I could just Numb the my feelings so I didn't have to deal with the crushing force of loneliness.I wish I didn't have to write these down and could get over anxiety and instead talk and get help. I wish I wasn't just full of wishes. I wish I could be remembered and not just an after thought. I wish I could just stop.
>
>I'm sorry for wasting your time on that. I'm sorry for being sorry. I'm sorry I want help but can't get it myself. I'm sorry for typing this out. I'm sorry for wanting something for myself just to hold on. I'm sorry my mind drifts and questions life. I'm sorry I have nothing to say, but so much to type. I'm sorry for getting your attention when I don't deserve it.I'm sorry for being nothing. I'm sorry for getting your hopes up. I'm sorry for being nothing but a screw up. I'm sorry I haven't enjoyed every thing. I'm sorry I don't want to die.
>
>I'm sorry that I wish to die. I'm sorry that I wish to stop feeling emotions. I'm sorry that I wish to not exist. I'm sorry that I wish to understand. I'm sorry that I wish to forget. I'm sorry that I wish to stop. I hope this does something its the best I could do.

i understand. i never saw this as a waste of time. same. yeah. yeah. it doesn't matter. we have to be happy with who we are. we can't be upset because we can't affect others. we should make ourselves happy by changing oursevels. i guess...

not at all. i love you showing me who you really are. i know. i think we're all a bunch of people who want to help eachother but can't help ourselves. it's alright. it's alright. it's alright. you earned my attention; or so called (You)'s. you're everything. not at all. you're not. life is about more than enjoying things. nothing to be sorry for.

it's alright. it's alright. it's alright. it's alright. it's alright. it's alright. it's actually done a lot; thank you.

uhh. i really like this. i like real thoughts and feels like this; that are less filtered, etc.. so. thank you for sharing your feels with me. maybe we can see the problems in eachother, then ourselves in eachother, and help eachother that way.

i don't know what to say either.

to be honest. i think you made me realize that i may be making others feel bad and helpless to help me by feeling so sad and helpless to help them.

how can i think of myself when others are suffering?

so. your pains i will bare. i wanted to do things right and not be cancer. but. indeed. i may sacrifice everything. including my vritues. and being chemo. for the sake of getting everything done as fast as possible like everyone wants me to. - maybe. -

like me. i want you to go on no matter what. no matter how insane we are. no matter how much pain we are. no matter how alone we are. keep going anyway.

do it.

because we are

>*(holds your hand)*

together alone...

so. thank you for remindng me.

i love you...

>*(hugs)*



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>andrew h

>Hello!

>i, big fan of your website and postings. :) if you need financial assistance just let me know ok? I'm willing to help out other posting addicts.
>
>Yes, I can kind of relate to everything you're going through, seeing your posts make me realize I'm not alone in this world.
>
>Thank you, for everything you do. :)

hello!

oh gosh... (v#v ) well, it's extremely embarrassing and difficult, but ok. thank you.

ahh. thanks. i thought i was the only 1 left. i guess i was wrong. thank you.

th...thank y-you too... (;u ; )




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>Marcus B

>hi
>
>is me
>
>how are you today
>
>how is the website
>
>please dont give up on it tho
>
>it cheered me up when i was down many times
>
>i am glad i stumbled upon you and your website on b
>
>you are the best insane inept and inanimate guy i know
>
>i would be sad to see you go alone again
>
>so please please know that some people are concerned for you and happy to know you
>
>even if theyre just anons from the internet ok?
>
>ok so
>
>*hugs*
>
>bye ^-^

hi

is you

i am all full of feelings and emotions

gooood...

i'll try...

great!... i'm glad it did!...

same goes...

hahahah!... you're killing me!...

well... i don't want to make you sad...

ahh... thank you... it's nice to know that others care about me, too... thank you...

being anons from the internet is more "real" than those in "real life".

k-k den...

>*(hugs)*

y-you too... ^^




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>Al T

>anon...

>hey anon
>don't let anyone get you down.
>no matter what anyone says, you are worth all the love in the world.
>good luck on the site.
>i will always be with you.

hi...

hey...
i'll try...
...hhhaaahhh... i... i see... th... thanks...
thank you...
i will always be with you...

...i'm a copy cat... meow meow...

i thought i was worthless... thank you...

>*(hugs)*





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>Emerson B

>Anon-kun Fighto~! ;

>Work hard Anon, we're all counting on you! We want to see you come out on the other side of this happy and proud!
>
>Faggotry aside, keep working hard at it Anon, we don't want you to give up.

i'll try...

i always work hard... thank you... i am so happy that you are here... thank you...

my faggotry... i always work hard... i will never give up...

thank you...




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>John G

>Anon.pcriot.com

>I'm here.

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>Harry M

>hello

>hello, i make you jp picture and tumblr.
>
>Today was terrible for many reasons. But I am glad i go to website to see strawpoll and new email.
>
>thank you.
>
>??????????????????
>(today is today. it does not stop the world from turning)

hi

thank you for doing that, i guess.

i'm sorry to hear that. i'm hope you're feeling better.

thank you.

yeah. sure thing.

i actually based the "anonpcriot" name since you named it that for some reason.

tho this isn't the real site.

thank you...

thank you a lot for doing whatever you're doing; tho i'm quite shy to investigate and look at it.

i love you...

>*(hugs)*




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>damei b

>Hello ;

>Are you still out there? Hello.

hi

yeah. i'm still out there. hi.

i may talk with you more later.

thank you.




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>FutaH

>Hey!

>So you put an email out there?
>I get that you won't be able to respond to everyone, but I want to wish you the best of luck!

hey...

yeah...
maybe. you too... thank you...




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>E G

>Hello

>You don't know who I am. I don't know who your are but i want you to know that i want you to be happy. Do you love yourself? If not I'll love you for you. No onea should be unloved. Everyone deserves to be happy. I want you to be happy.

i know you. you know me. i want you to be happy, too. i... honestly somewhat really don't like myself a lot... hahh... th...thank you... (v#v )
th...thanks. huhh... y-you too... (;u; )




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>Yolo swag

>I LOVE YOU

>so, hi anon, i saw your post today so heres my message
>
>i dont know you, you dont know me but something tells me that u really need some love and thats why im here saying nice things to you and trying to make smile at least a fake one, but a smile.
>
> if u ever need something im here for you cheking your page, when i have a chance.
>
>
>-h-anon-

i love you

hi... alright good...

you do now lol. oh... thanks... (v u v )

thank you for everything... same goes... thank you...

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>Darren W

>I don't know how to feel..

>How am I supposed to feel about this? You fucked us over, you used us, you consistently talked about your 'plan' so it feels like you knew what you were doing... You cant deny it, what your doing feels wrong
>
>But
>
>You made us feel happy, you gave us something to cling to, and then it was thrown away... Why did you manipulate us? Is it because we have weaker minds than most, did it make you feel good, what was the fundraiser for if your already leaching money off us?

i know how you feel...

i have no idea... no i didnt. no i didnt. i talked about my "plan" to improve your attitude. and make you excited. it's not that. it feels so right.

yeah

thank you. thank you. it was never thrown away. i didn't manipulate you. you don't have weaker minds than most. making you feel bad makes me feel bad. i'm not leaching money off of you. the fund-raiser is because i can't fund it and a lot asked to have a fund-raiser to help fund it faster.


one of the main reasons i opened the door was because another door closed. so i was actually hoping you'd contact me so i could let you know the truth.

i explained this in an earlier post and even talked about it and explained it on the boards. despite the endless attacks and insults from the very people i am trying to help.

i also didn't want to talk about this because i didn't want to make "a thing" about it. but since you and others are non-stop making "a thing" about it. i guess i have no choice. - telling the truth...


again. the site that made you think this says that it calculates how much money is being made or "revenue" based on "estimates". the "estimates" are not real. or based on any facts or evidence "estimates" are assumptions. they are inaccurate estimates and baseless assumptions.

it seems to formulate how much money it is making based on the "traffic" or "views" on the site and domain as a whole. sub-domains seem to be similar, but with more "revenue" added to the sub-domain as well as the domain.

"pcriot.com" is the domain. it is the www host; which hosts the "anon.pcriot.com" temporary placeholder site.

"anon.pcriot.com" includes the sub-domain. it is hosted by the "pcriot.com" www host.

i don't own or have full control over "pcriot.com". they are our www host for the temporary placeholder site.

i would like to have at least a relatively somewhat decent and independent real site in the future.


couldn't you have figured out a way to to talk to me about it so you didn't have to attack me?

or do you want me to feel awful?


i invite you to reply to me with a follow-up about you feel about this.

i invite you and anyone out there that has a problem with me to contact me. so i can let you know the truth.




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>Darren W

>At least answer this


>And truthfully, how much money do you make off of this? Im not accepting none as an answer

then you won't accept truth as an answer.

what do you expect me to do?


i have never made any money.

i only lost money.

i never did it for money.

i did it for the lulz.

that's the main reason i don't want to do the fund-raiser.

i don't want you to think i'm doing it for money.

the only reason i consider doing a fund-raiser is because everyone asks for it. -

to have the site as fast as possible because you can fund it. -


i feel really bad about this.

so i'm sorry if you feel that way.


i know i didn't do anything wrong.

but i still feel bad that you feel bad.


i'm sorry i messed up.

and i'm sorry i can't fix it.


maybe i didn't do it for the lulz...

...maybe i did it for the love...


look inside our hearts and maybe we can make this whole thing work again...


so i'm sorry...


thank you...


i love you...


>*(hugs)*...




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>RV B

>My Thoughts

>Anon,
>
>Thank you for providing this opportunity for those that are aware of your site to speak out and try to have a conversation and dialogue with you. I'd like to ask you how much attention do you pay to the results of your polls? I know that was a limited way to get feedback from your visitors, but I would like to know. Also, why do you believe that you were banned from so many of your familiar places online (or even in real life) that you have been frequenting? Do you feel that your existence has benefited and uplifted (even in an individual, if not minor way) humanity since your existence began? You say that your current site is a placeholder and a possible preview of a larger and final site that is to come in the future. I am aware of your funding issues that you have said to be going through, but why is it a site that you feel people would be interested in visiting? Are you planning on providing services and information for your future, prospective users that they would not otherwise find? Can you be consulted for advice on topics that you would establish that you have a high level of expertise with that users may find to be valuable? Well, I am writing to see if you are serious about this new feedback method and if there is actually someone else on the other end of the line, here. I await your response to my first e-mail to you, and hopefully, we will cordially continue the conversation from there. Thank you for reading, anon.
>
>Regards,
>Another "Anon"

alright.

anon.


you're welcome. it's time. - i pay a lot of attention to the polls; i have all of the presumed final results saved; they all mean a lot to me. - yeah well better than nothing, a lot. - i am banned because i like fun too much, playing, and not taking the internet seriously. - i doubt that my existence is helpful; but so many here seem to like me surprisingly; so i guess so. - yeah. this site is a placeholder; it's really just a placeholder. - yeah. i can't fund it. we can visit and be playing with the site just because we're interested. - i wanna say... yeah. - i'm not sure what you mean but maybe. - i'm actually not sure if i should take things less serious or more serious. but i have always been here with you. - well. i said that i -may- respond to messages on the site. but. it's not a guarantee. 'cause i don't want you to be upset if i don't reply. please understand. - again i'm actually sort of hoping that i can have the site up so i can do something more frequent and less awkward than this. - thank you for being with me, anon.

regards,
anon




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>Elijah B
>
>Dear Anon ;
>
>No, I don't think it is a waste of time. At least, not to me. You clearly have an interest in this website. I only met you once, but it was profound enough for me to not only bookmark your website, but check it every day. I don't get to talk to you that often, but I at least want to make sure how you're doing. >Anyway, I'll end it here if you want. I hope we can talk more soon, but I won't pester you. Unless you want it, that is. I'm rooting for you. Good luck, and thank you for being you.

hi.

ah.

alright good. great. i'm glad it isn't. yeah, i'm extremely interested int his more than anything else. ah, thank you so much , thank sooo much. yeah, i've been thinking that you deserve to know how i'm doing.
oh. it's fine. same goes. not at all. heheheheh... yeah... same goes. good luck, and that you for being y-you too...




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>alex c

>anonpcriot

>Ok so I'm a newfag, what is your site supposed to/going to be? I bookmarked the site a few months ago but it's just confusing to me. I open it occasionally and read whatever's new, but I don't know what the site itself is supposed to be. Any explanation?

.

.

it's alright. i have no idea. everything and anything. probably a board or something. thank you, it's confusing to me too. thank you. i don't know. i have no idea what this site is supposed to be. so i'm sorry...




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>Neko R

>Hello ;

>I don't know how long I can stay around.

.

hi...

me too...


stay around as long as you can...


...thank you...




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i feel a lot better now. thank you, everyone.

this whole experiment turned out better than i thought. i may do this more in the future.

i may also update you all on "plans", etc.. i think you deserve it. i just don't want to get your hopes up if they don't happen. so please don't label it "fake news", etc.. - it's more so just posting some of my thoughts, too.

i'm also worried about how some of you used profanity. i have absolutely no problem with this personally. but i sort of want this to be "neutral" for right now. i'd probably make a "sfw" and "nsfw" site or sections. but "sfw" is more "neutral". see i'm telling you what i'm planning already. anyway. so. i can't bring myself to change your profanity right now. so we'll see how this turns out.

i think i'm also going to experiment to post more normally. in paragraphs. as opposed to a series of lines. i was really able to realize this when i saw some other users posting similarly; perhaps out of flattery. so i'm flattered. but sort of confused. on how to talk.

i'd like to talk normally so you can feel my energy and have a connection with me. at the same time i'm tempted to capitalize and be more "professional"; if that helps the site and everyone. but. surprisingly absolutely no one so far has told me to capitalize anything or talk differently. no one even told me something like you know "when you make more serious posts then capitalize and seem a little bit more serious, and when you want to have more energy then use lowercase letters". but nobody requested me to switch between them or anything. so. i'm hoping that this isn't harming the site or you.

so. maybe i'll "pivot" when the fund-raiser or the real site is up and be more "serious" and less "autism"; more like a "professional" and "real" admin; for the benefit of the site and everyone. then post normally and "talk normally" in the fund-raiser events or site itself, etc.. i don't know.

ahh. so thanks for everything.

you are the best.

thank you...




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ahh.

thank you for comforting me.

you make me feel better about my insanity, and autism, and stuff.

but again if you want me to be less insane and autism at some point or whatever then that's fine, too.




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everything seems bad and getting worse. i'm not sure if i'll make it. or if i'll disappear forever. because something terrible happens to me.

but you make me happy.


i have a lot of problems

but you put me in a happy mood.




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thank you, everyone.

for everything.


being a real person maybe means that i can't really be an anonymous user as much as i was anymore.

after everything, what may be the most important thing in this world, may not be the lulz... but the love. so many of you ask me who i am, and why i do this. i'm not sure. maybe i am you. maybe i am who i am and do everything that i do for the love...


i am... anon... whoever i am...

...a spamming troll...

...telling you...

...thank you...




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thank you...


>*(hugs)*...




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i'm somewhat tempted to clear the site of everything again. so it's not overwhelming to possible new users. tho. i just seem to add similar things that were there before all over again right.


also. i think that i may need a dictionary or something for some users. since a lot may not understand terminology. or how i use it anymore. my inner-memes and self-memes that i post out-loud here a lot now. - not really definitions. but more-so explanations. not -what- they mean only; but -why- they come into existence and are used.

abuse. - on a lot of things they like to call playing just because you're interested "abuse". no. abusing others to death is abuse.
kill. - on some chats like internet relay chat instead of saying "banned" they say "killed". so it is used in that sense.
ban. - banned. banish. originally it was used to stop something from actually spamming and ruining everything. but now it seems. now used for no reason at all.
play. - playing. basically just having fun and not taking it seriously. on the internet or elsewhere. you can't do it anywhere now. videogames or anywhere now. sad.
cancer. - "cancer" is just sort of something that ruins andor kills nice things and makes things worse.
chemo. - "chemo" is sort of nice things that makes things better andor gets rid of something that ruins andor kills nice things and makes things worse.
anon. - a more obvious term is "anon"; which is short for "anonymous"; which derives from the greek; which means "without a name" or something.
loli. - cute little girl. yeah the origins may be lewd and it may be viewed as lewd. but uh. i guess you can see that like "chemo"ing it or uncorrupting it right.
lol. - laugh out loud. i remember that it is what a lot did everything on the internet for. for the lol's. i like those times. they make me happy.
lols. - more than 1 "laugh out loud".
lolz. - a funny way to say "lols".
lul. - a funny way to say "lol"; or perceived as pronouncing "lol" out-loud.
lulz. - "lulz" is a corruption of "lol". which means to "laugh out loud". said as a not-serious term. but later if i go back to "lol's"; a lot want me to use "lulz".
lel. - a funny way to say "lol". originally meaning "well that was stupid and not really funny at all" funny. later sort of used sincerely and to bully others.
kek. - sort of a way of laughing or something. a korean way of laughing or something. used in some netgames back in the day as well. became really popular again.


thank you...




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i am

it is

will be

it's at


i am

it is

will be

it's at

because


i love it so


my wants and gets now


playing


messing


go then stopped so


look for how to disappear


in this alternate reality...




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i had a dream of a bat flying to me




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>Anon! Is it alright if I leave your site open on like library computers, or do you not want it spread that much?

anon! yeah, you can do that. it's just that some stuff is pretty "nsfw". so. thank you...




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this power may have corrupted me and made me more insane than i was before...


...but you seem to like it; so it's cool...




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being by myself... enjoying stuff... enjoying "old" stuff...


being by myself... enjoying stuff...




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seeing cancer omnipresent makes me more insane than i was before...


seeing chemo present makes me more determined than i was before...




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take a lot of time by yourself making up ideas for a website that is never coming out!!


just kidding...




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i lose grammar. i sorry.




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i had a dream asking "are you them" and then i woke up and checked the site




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thank you...




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this is the worst game in the world...




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alright. i've decided to make another post. even if it's perceived as "negative".

i think the worst part about cancer is that i can't enjoy anything new. like cancer invades everything so it's like alright i'll just enjoy something that isn't cancer. but then everything becomes cancer. then i can't enjoy anything. for example i could enjoy everything that came out because it isn't cancer. but since so much is cancer now; i can enjoy fewer and fewer. so i'm sort of stuck with "old" things; which are also made more difficult to enjoy on a whole. things become very "stagnant". i always added "new" content all the time. now everything's stagnant. probably in part because of my self-isolation; since when the live video broadcast experiment went down - i decided to not look at many new things at all - until it was back up; and if it's never back up then i'll never enjoy new things. so. maybe it's just that. but. still. to see apparently everything becoming cancer... i am saddened...

tho. i guess if everything is cancer. then that makes us relatively better right. so. maybe. it's because that they don't stop being cancer. and it's in our best interest that they don't... - i just wish it wasn't so bad everywhere... - so. we win. either way. i guess... -

it's just... when you have everyone support cancer... and everyone fight against you... when cancer exists everywhere... and you can't exist anywhere... it... fills me with an extremely empty feeling... a dieing feeling... it kills me inside...

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i may post a little bit more for the time being; just as long as i can...


i'm thinking about things. am i helping the site by updating it. or am i making it worse by updating it...

a lot seem to enjoy it; and want me to do it more. it's just that i always think about the response that is like "when are you going to stop playing this game". i don't want anyone to think i'm not focused; or playing a game. i am completely devoted to this. i did all that i can. i am doing all that i can. i can't do anything right now. so i'm posting more on the site. - so. what i have to say to those users that want to have this started and "leave forever" is - i know how you feel... it's just that i've done all that i can do right now... so there's nothing i can do... i'm sorry...


i'd also like to say that i'm sort of happy that i continue to be called "anon"; despite being identified with this site, etc.. i was thinking that others could think "well you're not really anonymous because you're identified by the site". but it hasn't really been an issue. which is great. i just don't really want a name. so. yeah. i just go with "anon" by default. but if everyone gives me a name or calls me something; then that's fine. it's fine if i take on many different names; and am called many different names as well. i've always had and used a lot of usernames when those were forced on me; so this works out perfect for me. if i had to have a name then i'd probably prefer "anon chan". since it's basically anon but funny and cute. that and it can used and apply to all other anon's as well. so i don't mind that name. but whatever you wanna call me is fine...


i was gonna post more. but i decided not to. but i get questions asking what was going to be answered in the posts anyway. so here's more.


>Your little project (if it is yours) is really intriguing, OP. Hang in there

th...thanks


>How long have you been writing your feelz spam on the website for?

...a lot...


>I.. I love you.

i love y-you too...


>Do you ever plan on telling definite details of your life?

being "anonymous" is about "what" not "who". but. maybe...


>You're a riot, anon

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it's here...

i fear...

i feel...

it's near...


a...

a painful dream...

a painful thing...

a painful bad dream...

it's so bad...

it's so sad...

pain i have...

it hurts really bad...


a...

a painful dream...

a painful thing...

a painful feeling...

i feel it...

it's with me...

every day...

i can feel it...

...with me...


i fear...

it's here...


...i live with it...


i feel...

these tears...


...i feel it...



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>Your website, it's not very long as much as i love to read what you write

... making it short is intentional... i hold back a lot... thank you...


a lot of it is so good... i'm thinking about not even posting it...


alright. i may or may not make long ones. maybe medium ones. i may or may not be negative or positive. i don't really know who i am or what this is. but here it is.

tho. i'm completely self-aware and spaghetti right now. - here goes the spaghetti.


>Hello. Another day, another insult?
>Well, I expect others to join in the thread an tell you to kill yourself, insult you in many ways and you doing same towards them, et cetera.
>Kinda. Although anons get shit for their stanky opinions. You for being you.
>That is very strange. So, sometimes anons come in and shit all over eachother for, as they say, evading bans, spamming and posting eachothers skeam everywhere to get new friends yet telling most of them to fuck off for different reasons and sometimes. I really dont know what to think about you, buddy.

this is a good way to describe how a lot of anonymous users now as a whole tbh. - in other words no change from being anonymous.

no. that wasn't directed at anyone on this site... tho i wouldn't mind if you do that, i guess...


>But, I'm trying to figure out of have any positive motives as outcomes go at all despite the shortcomings you're experiencing.


i do have positive motives. wanting to make things better is positive. for the lulz.


>Just to piss off other people or something? That's your raison d'etre?

the lulz doesn't mean just to piss off other people or something. ?...


"the lulz" means laughter, playing, fun, happiness. - maybe even the love...

i'm sorry if everything you use to look up what "the lulz" are tells you that it means "just to piss off other people". - but. it never did...

you have to remember that those sites weren't the ones using it and don't know what it means. they weren't there. just because they say it doesn't make it true...


>So are we all clear on the fact that you DONT make money from this?

yeah. i have never made any money. i only lost money. everyone asks me to do a fund-raiser; so they can help.


to be honest. i have considered becoming cancer. mainly because would-be chemo is self-destructive, kills itself, while supporting cancer. making it cancer. so. if there's no chemo left - if there's nothing left to support it - if i am the only 1 left. - then the logic would be that i have to become cancer. -

maybe i can't fund it. maybe no one will fund it. maybe all chemo will be killed. maybe everything will be cancer. i -

but. i would like to at least -try- to be chemo and make things better. - even if i am the only 1 left. - just as long as i can...


i am the only 1 left...

>Only 1 of what left? A group that remembers when the Internet was fun and let you be free?

it's complicated... i guess so...

some seem to remember. or at least remember the feeling. seeing so many users agree with me, or even clearly being from extremely early times, or even clearly being from extremely recent times; is extremely encouraging.


i don't really wanna talk about the site or anything. because so many don't understand. i mean i give the most simple and playful answer like "for the lulz"; and that's offensive now...


i can't...




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>zuerst dachte ich gut von dir, doch nachdem ich deine reviews sah...
>du monster!
> First I thought well of you, but after I saw your reviews ...
> You monster!

>complains about problem
>doesn't explain what is said problem
>thinks others are the problem


so...

...i am forced to not be me...

so...

...a life worse then death...


...and they call me a monster...




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april fools!!... ^^

nah i'm just kidding...


i love you all...


you know i'd never say things like that...


ah.

also.


it is the 1st anniversary of the way i have been keeping track of this site in its current incarnation. on april fools day.

so. we are making progress.

this time everyone has to help.

i believe that this is all happening for a reason...


i appreciate everyone being here.

i hope i didn't ruin everything by posting.


even after all this time...

thank you for still being there...


thank you...




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i don't think anyone understands my complicated feelings...

so i don't want to post on here...


maybe it's like picking a style to choose...

perhaps using all of them is the answer...


so i may not be able to post all my feelings on here after all...

mainly because this is so prominent...


i liked the idea of posting here to communicate with everyone and have it not be prominent...

but it is prominent...


i can't really talk about anything on here because i really don't think anyone would understand...

but maybe outside of here you may see and understand things differently...


i suppose i could do the opposite and be harsh as before...

tho that would probably have everyone run away...


i made this to make things better...

then i want to help it better...

but it's such a complicated issue...

really complicated...


the messages i got was overall really positive and encouraging...

tho i wonder if i could lose them like everyone else...


part of me thinks i should just use my full-"negative" emotions again...

part of me thinks that it's best if i do this and have everyone run away...


maybe i'm destined to forever be attacked and lose everything around me...

but at least i would have these words of truth in my heart...


i should expect everyone to leave...

i should expect to be alone...


i've done all that i can right now...

i'm not sure what i'll do now...


it's alright if everyone leaves...

maybe i'm supposed to be alone...


thank you...




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...i don't like cancer tbh... as some of you may know... i don't use things like that... and stuff... i don't like a lot of things tho...


>It's alright, we understand~


...thank you... ...very much... ...that really means a lot to me... ...i really mean that... my positive side is real... i hope my other sides don't ruin it for you... and stuff...


>Really, don't worry about it, we're here for you!~

thank you... everything... seems to get worse... thus... yeah... making the site and stuff... and... yeah... that's it... thank you...


>*(hugs)*...



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>hot single waifus in your area


this is the new logo.

feel free to post it on the internet.


if the site ever has ads -

this will probably be the 1st.


i didn't want to post this because i didn't want to ruin the narrative, or make it like i was playing with others feelings, and stuff.

but everyone wanted me to post this and kept asking me to post this.


you've been waiting for it. you've been asking for it.

so here it is.


thank you.




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i've basically run out of a lot of the similar reactions i've been using a lot.... - after about over 100 reactions... a lot wiped out by mail...

i'll have to re-post the same reactions - everyday is repost day, find more similar eractions, use more different reactions, or make it...

the idea of "anon-chan" - as it's called - is to take "green faced monster with no face" "anon" and make it cute...

tho it may be considered cute - i don't consider it cute enough to accurately relate all of my complex feelings...

the "human" form is possible... tho it sort of ruins the joke... cute anon vs. random simple-style "human" girl form...

so... i don't know... like... "anon-chan" is "that's the joke"... but... no one seems to get it... or gets it but isn't laughing... or thinks it's cute...


"fan art" that i get for the page is another possibility. but i don't get that that much.

i appreciate the little edits and experiments. but i don't want it to be too repetitive...


also. since re-organizing the site. i've been considering how i structure everything as a whole. including on my own computer. so. may do it...


also. i found out that file-names are really case-sensitive on here.

"*.png" suffix won't work for a file with a "*.PNG" suffix. it has to be "*.PNG". it has to be the exact same file-name. that's hilarious.


i've decided that from now on i'm going to have all extensions be lower-case by default to make this easier; seems to be the convention.

i could probably get away with having upper-case and lower-case and making it work; but this is just easier.

also even things like winos gets confused when it attempts to compare and read case-differences; as it ignore it.

personally i think ignoring it is better. but whatever. lowercase it is.


also. i added stuff to the site a little bit. since everyone kept complaining about how it was too simple; etc.. might as well throw away your cell phones for being too easy and carry around desktop computers tbh but k den.


also. probably going to remove the e-mail thing on the top of the page. to not confuse potential "new" users. tho. things went well with it at the top.


well. it was asked for for me to post more. even if it is spam. so. here it is.

even tho i am shy spaghetti...

even tho i am really shy and bad at talking to people...

...it's nice to have someone to talk to...


thank you...




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...anon-chan "mini" form works a little bit better right... it is more cute right...

i just sort of see that it could be viewed as a "low-effort" thing; instead of a full thing. tho it would be to be more cute...

i think the main issue is that i want to keep all of the elements of anon but make it loli.

it still ends up looking scary and male. which i like. but others may not get.

i don't want to give anon "suggestive" features. because it ruins the point.

anon loli should be anon loli. not something else. or it ruins "the joke". and "the point".

i also change anon a lot from the "base" form; as a lot do.

i make mine darker; because i heard how a lot don't like green. so i get it nearer to black. a "shadow" form suits me; i think.

so. that answers that question. you can make an anonymous loli. most won't understand what it is.

maybe it's better that way. not everyone will get it. the right people will get it...


the original anon was basically a shadow form anyway; with a big "no picture available" on their face; but green.

the business-suit was added later when the green shadow face with "no picture available" was put on a business-suit chemoing cancer.

some image boards have abandoned green anon in favor of making their own anon. like red anon.

other sites have "anon"; but have them represented by what the site -tells- them to represent them as; like a grey rock with sunglasses.

that's what i like about "green" anon. no one -told- everyone "this is what anon is".

anon was not made. anon emerged...


"community"-driven stuff, and "communities" choosing their own destiny, means a lot to me. it is very important to me.

it has more meaning to have the community to decide what they are instead of being told what they are.

i was actually sort of hoping that others could make up an interpretation of me - that was hopefully not too unflattering.

maybe when the real site is up i won't be so upfront about me being an anon loli thing. then others will post their interpretation of me.

also. as for red anon. i don't mind them being different. anon's of different "communities" are usually represented differently.

i just sort of wish we weren't divided as separate anon's - but - united as together anon's...


also. this post was going to be longer. but i decided to fight back hard against being "negative".

tho it would be nice if i was recognized as being "positive" by identifying problems and trying to make it better.


again. i don't want to be "negative" after hearing how i've helped others by being only "positive".

because the last thing i want to do is not help them.


it's just sort of difficult when you want to use logic, reason, and truth to make it better - but can't because it's interpreted as "negative", etc..

it can hurt what you want to do over-all. the message doesn't get thru. it is difficult... holding my feelings in my heart...


maybe that is the most "rare". using reason instead of emotion.

so rare that it seems extinct.


i'll be "negative" now. - a little bit. -

i was told "we understand". so. we'll see...


i know any attempt i make to go to go back to the internet or "social media" cancer is short-lived.

but it is absolutely unbelievable how i was the user that was called a "troll" for playing, having fun, not taking things seriously, and doing silly things for fun.

and yet now i am the voice of reason.

it's insane how far the internet, the world, everyone, and everything has fallen in terms of accepting basic intelligence.


and you could say "it's for fun" and it "makes things interesting".

but just getting banned and not being able to be playing or doing anything for fun, or even talk normally - isn't very fun. - to be honest. -


when the real site is up - i should be able to post anonymously. and probably will. and that will be less likely to affect the site negatively.

so. it doesn't matter. nothing matters.


when the site is up i'll probably have more to talk about positively anyway. as an anon, etc..

all i really wanted to do was to play and have fun. originally.

there's just so much cancer ruining and stopping playing and fun.

so. i'll work towards my goals until i can do more.


anyway...


i hope this helps...


take care...




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>I wanna know everything but I don't know anything, I guess I'm learning to cope.

you already know everything because you know you don't know anything...


>open discussion though I'm guessing you're not quite as popular.

if i'm not popular then that's your fault...


>We love you too!

>We love you too!

>please hug me

>*melts* ty master


i love y-you too... <-<3...

>*(hugs)*...



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> amnesia

>For you

>Just heard this recently

>It just made me think of you


...thank you...




amnesia

you've got the world on your shoulders

innocence let you too soon


so young and heart

yet you feel so much older

under your favorite full moon



so just a little time

don't you be afraid


just a little time

gonna make it fade


your heart is gonna shine

and you're gonna make us proud


send a little light

gonna shine for you


things will be alright

gonna get you thru


searching for a silver lining

on this cloud


amnesia

oh oh oh oh

you forgot your name

don't let your spirit fade away


amnesia

oh oh oh oh

you've been thru such pain...


but your little heart

is growing stronger

every day



hey

don't fade away

don't fade away



amnesia

you've got this burden to bare now

hiding away from the world


but deep down behind that disguise

that you wear now

i see lost little girl



so just a little time

don't you be afraid


just a little time

gonna make it fade


your heart is gonna shine

and you're gonna make us proud


send a little light

gonna shine for you


things will be alright

gonna get you thru


searching for a silver lining

on this cloud


amnesia

oh oh oh oh

you forgot your name


don't let your spirit fade away


amnesia

oh oh oh oh

you've been thru such pain...


but your little heart

is growing stronger

every day


hey

don't fade away

don't fade away



under your favorite full moon


under your favorite full moon



amnesia...

you forgot your name..

don't let your spirit fade away...


amnesia...

you've been thru such pain...

but you're growing stronger everyday...



amnesia

oh oh oh oh

you forgot your name

don't let your spirit fade away


amnesia

oh oh oh oh

you've been thru such pain...



but your little heart

is growing stronger

everyday



heyyyyyyyyy


don't fade away


don't fade away


don't fade awaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy


yeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh


yeeeaaaahhhhh


come onnnnnnnnn


do do

dodo do

dodo do

dodo do do


do do

dodo do

dodo do

dodo do do


stronger and stronger...


do do

dodo do

dodo do

dodo do do


do do

dodo do

dodo do

dodo do do


so much stronger...


don't fade away...



when the world is on your shoulders...


...stay...



...don't fade away...



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>Hiya, anon-chan!

...hiya!...

...

this is going on the fridge.




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please do not make any posts or threads about me... -

...right now... -


most likely i can not have daily contact thru boards like i did before...


you'll just have to be patient...

you'll just have to trust me...


i don't want fun or bonding that everyone is having without me...


this is happening because of reasons...


i believe this is all happening for a reason...


please be very patient and please believe...


thank you...


i love you...




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i'm alive.

i'm alright.

i was sort of hoping that i wouldn't come back until i had results to report after so long of a wait.

you may be worried about you and i may be leaving you in the dark.

an event has also forced me to update the page whether i like it or not.

so i decided to update.

we are making progress and i am working as always.

"x.vu" as a link site seems to be shutting down or something. - that was the shortest link i could get. so i'm lowering it on the list. no suitable replacement yet. apparently replaced with "1day.bplaced.net".

i added an alternative to this site in "anon.bplaced.net", and a "tr.im/1aqns" redirect short link, and a "yep.it/anon" alternative site short link. -

i'm also thinking about replacing "anon.pcriot.com" with "anon.bplaced.net". "pcriot.com" has an issue of temporarily suspending you if you don't sign in for 30 days straight. "bplaced.net" may not. but not tested. so.

to be meta. i've switched from a 1366x768 to a 1920x1080 monitor. mainly because i multi-task a lot and can't see anything without constantly having windows and programs overlap. - i am blown away. - it is amazing.

i also removed 2 comics that i thought would be funny and make you laugh. at the time. but. thinking about it. it may be viewed as aggression. or something. so the message won't get thru. so i took them down.

i've also been completely rethinking the site structure, even personal computer structure, and everything. it's mainly down-sizing. consolidating. for example - instead of 10 parts - there's 5, and stuff...

i guess i should say a little bit more. since it's been a long time.

i've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately.

i posted some of my thoughts and asked for some of anon's thoughts.

but anon didn't like my thoughts. so i decided to take my thoughts down.

so i'm sorry...

thank you...



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i've decided to make another small update. instead of editing the update from before.

i have heard that a lot of you have been worried about me. sorry for making you worry.

i've decided to update a little bit more. to let you know i'm alive. which is fair to ask, i guess...

i may post threads a little bit more. and i'll probably make it "a thing" to at least update every month. maybe. for your sake. - i know a lot of you want to hear it.


also. i wanted to tell everyone that i put an e-mail to contact me out there as a small thing. so there's something. not to use it all the time.

i thought it was clear with the message that came with posting the e-mail. that i don't want it to be "a thing".

so. i'm fine. not making e-mails "a thing" doesn't mean i'm not all right.

but. thank you for caring about me...


i also wanted to talk about the "x.vu" link apparently going down and shutting down.

"x.vu" apparently has a section that lets you look at how many went to a link or something.

when i looked at the link. -

there was over 30000 hits.

that's crazy.

and i never expected anyone to care at all.

thank you sooo much...


maybe i'll actually add a "hit counter" to the site to know how many are going to the site.

tho. everyone already accuses the site of being a "virus" etc. when there isn't anything. -

but that would happen either way. no mater what's on the site. - so. -

i don't know...


i was also thinking about talking about how to fund it and the fundraiser.

but i feel really uncomfortable talking about funds andor money. - because i think it makes you feel really uncomfortable talking about funds or money.


well. 1st. some random technical, philosophical, meta, administration, governance, political, whatever stuff

i've been thinking about how to theoretically run a site for a long time. and i always wanted it to be at least somewhat decent. as impossible as that seems to be to fund.

well. i was actually thinking about giving the site a lot of different divisions. or - even - in a more-so extreme scenario - a series of sites.

so. i played with the idea of something like this. - the following. -

>life site. sort of a decoy if anyone asks what sort of site stuff i'm involved in.

>test site. experimental tests that i don't want to bother the main sites with or make a thing out of.

>personal site. similar to here. since some seem to enjoy. so. see where that goes.

>plays by the rules. mainstream sort of site that would be able to exist on the internet without issue from other stuff on the internet.

>doesn't play by the rules. similar to the "extreme" sites. which i think is important. but. if you don't like it. you can think of it as "containment". right.

>doesn't play by the rules plus. a more-so extreme site with less "moderation". as i wouldn't feel too comfortable having a bunch of mods anyway. mainly concerned about them being corrupt. don't trust them. and stuff...

>plays by the rules nfsw. mainstream site but with nsfw lewd stuff.

>plays by the rules sfw plus. sort of a "di$ney" style site. may be split into 3 different sections. sort of like "jr", "channel", "xd". - for those that don't like the "extreme" stuff, and stuff...

>holding site. holds some of the more "mainstream" sites as a whole. similar to alphabet inc. holding joogle and jootube etc.. - just sort of a hub - or portal - for them; as it were...

>extra site. isn't assigned anything. just sort of there just in case as a separate thing. -

end of list. -

but. i was thinking about how everyone else ran their sites. and how that came about. and what's consistent is that they're all running 1 site.

so being unique is fine. but i also feel that having too many sites can also be like spreading ourselves too thin, too early, in too many different directions.

so. it's most likely going to be 1 site. -

then it -may- be split into multiple sites - -if- and -when- it's needed. - since sections will never suffice. apparently.

so. yeah. most likely 1 site will be posted 1st. and if we need to make another site for some reason. then we'll do that. as it happens. if we're popular enough. if there's an issue. or something.

then we'll see where that goes.

i guess...


anyway.


well. i am saddened when i post a thread for a long time and it goes slowly and i can't delete it. because i feel like i'm sort of forcing you to stay in the thread to make myself feel better.

just having everyone sort of leave, be bored, sad, or lose energy is also not a good thing. so. i didn't want to make long slow threads for no reason. - that don't go anywhere.

i am saddened when everyone decides to meet outside of the threads or the site on something else. making it so i have no reason to do this at all.

but. i also feel bad telling everyone not to do something. it always seems like everyone does what you don't want them to do doesn't it.

so i decided not existing until the site is up is the best way to go.

but. i hear about how you miss me. how you love me. how you care about me.

so i have a lot of conflicted feelings...


i remember someone said something to me like -

"so many of us. new family when?".

and -

"i don't want to be here anymore. when can we leave here forever?".

i'd like to.

if i would if i could...

i'm sorry...


well...


i don't know what will happen now...


i hope this helps...


thank you...


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